Hello my dearest Ella,
You are fast asleep and so I write to you. Today was a beautiful day. On my days off the thing I look forward to the most is the mornings, the one thing I miss the most when I'm at work. I love picking you up as you rub your eyes, and your already so full of energy happy to see me. You give me a little hug and we go back to our bed and I nurse you a little as I close my eyes and doze a little more. Poppa usually sleeps in so this morning I brought you with me to the kitchen as I had my cup of coffee and made breakfast. I want to expand your tastes so I decided to make a healthy egg scramble with all kinds of yummy veggies like yellow peppers, mushrooms, tomatoes and basil. I added some turkey and cheddar too and it turned out so good! I have you a plum while it cooled down because you were pretty hungry and you ate a good amount. We also watched sesame street and played in the living room.
Yeya got you a couch your size and you love it. You brush your teeth in it, climb all over it and read books in it. You also like to push it around the living room, such a cute sight!
Lately you've been very attached to me, you follow me everywhere! Sometimes you get frustrated because I go back and forth around the house and you can't keep up and get tired.
I see you mimicking my little behaviors and you even want to put your own shoes on. It amazes me how quickly you catch on to everything both poppa and I do. You even have your own language which sadly only you understand. But lucky for you, poppa and I usually pick up on your hand gestures and points. It's so cute and soon enough you'll replace those made up words with real ones.
Yesterday Carmen came over and brought pictures she took at your birthday party. They were so beautiful, we were speechless with how beautifully she captured such an important day. She even had a few pics of the day you were born. Poppa got teary eyed and it really put into perspective how fleeting and precious time is. That's why no matter how tired I am, I always come up with the energy to give you plenty of hugs and kisses. And even if you want me to read you the same book over 30 times, I gladly do it, because I know how quickly the moment can pass.
I want you to always remember to do the same, not just with your own children but in life. Don't ever let the moment pass you, opportunities to make someone's day or make someone's day better don't come by everyday. I always wonder to myself if I'm giving you too much affection or love but how can that be possible? You're such a thriving, happy baby! And isn't that what all babies want, to be loved and cared for? That's what we all thrive on.
I'm off to bed now, but I know the rest of our summer days will only get better and better! Love you, momma.
A blog dedicated to the most important first year of our lives
Thursday, June 28, 2012
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Happy B Day from Papa
Me and your mommy met june18 2010, and exactly one year later you were born , I held you in my arms and cried tears of joy . And I cry every day inside at the thought of you growing up. I think to myself "your only gonna be this old for one day" the days slip by and I say the same thing every day . I wish I could bottle this feeling . I am the luckiest man I know . Every day is a new adventure and I can't wait for what tomorrow will bring . Happy birthday ellagator .Love your papa
One whole year
Dear Ella,
Please forgive me for being a day late on writing to you. Yesterday was such a festive day, I couldn't put you down long enough to type. Before I begin all the birthday sappyness, I will begin by telling you how proud I am of the little girl you are becoming. You are already walking and within days im sure you will be running! Today poppa and I took you up and down the sidewalk, walking side by side. You walked so much, and you wanted to just keep going. I put your little slip on shoes and you were ready to go. Pretty soon you'll know what it means when I put your shoes on and you'll be soooo excited to walk out the door.
I'm also proud of your spirit. You have the most lively personality. I swear your cheeks must hurt from smiling so much. You are such a happy baby with such a bubbly and determined personality.
I wonder if you take after your poppa in personality. Everyone says you are he exact image of me as a child. So perhaps the honors go to poppa. Of course you are a person all your own but poppa and I love to figure out who you most resemble.
I cannot believe that 1 year ago I was holding a fragile newborn life in my hands. A life I had given, you.
I absolutely love you so much. Words cannot describe the feeling I get when I look at you, observing your mannerisms and hearing you whisper so softly to yourself. You make me laugh, cry tears of joy, smile ear to ear and imagine all the possibilities of your bright future. Nothing can stop you from achieving the most amazing things. Both poppa and I will be there along every step of the way being your biggest cheerleaders. Though the first year, the baby year may be past us. This only marks another beginning to a new exciting chapter. And though you may be a walking, babbling toddler grasping for independence, in my heart you will always be that warm, sweet smelling baby I first held in that hospital June 18 at 7:55am, the day before fathers day. I love you, I cannot wait to see the amazing woman you will become one day. Love you always and forever my Ella bear. -momma
Please forgive me for being a day late on writing to you. Yesterday was such a festive day, I couldn't put you down long enough to type. Before I begin all the birthday sappyness, I will begin by telling you how proud I am of the little girl you are becoming. You are already walking and within days im sure you will be running! Today poppa and I took you up and down the sidewalk, walking side by side. You walked so much, and you wanted to just keep going. I put your little slip on shoes and you were ready to go. Pretty soon you'll know what it means when I put your shoes on and you'll be soooo excited to walk out the door.
I'm also proud of your spirit. You have the most lively personality. I swear your cheeks must hurt from smiling so much. You are such a happy baby with such a bubbly and determined personality.
I wonder if you take after your poppa in personality. Everyone says you are he exact image of me as a child. So perhaps the honors go to poppa. Of course you are a person all your own but poppa and I love to figure out who you most resemble.
I cannot believe that 1 year ago I was holding a fragile newborn life in my hands. A life I had given, you.
I absolutely love you so much. Words cannot describe the feeling I get when I look at you, observing your mannerisms and hearing you whisper so softly to yourself. You make me laugh, cry tears of joy, smile ear to ear and imagine all the possibilities of your bright future. Nothing can stop you from achieving the most amazing things. Both poppa and I will be there along every step of the way being your biggest cheerleaders. Though the first year, the baby year may be past us. This only marks another beginning to a new exciting chapter. And though you may be a walking, babbling toddler grasping for independence, in my heart you will always be that warm, sweet smelling baby I first held in that hospital June 18 at 7:55am, the day before fathers day. I love you, I cannot wait to see the amazing woman you will become one day. Love you always and forever my Ella bear. -momma
Tuesday, May 29, 2012
Little Steps
Baby bear-
This is our last week at the little yellow house at the top of the hill. The one where we built our first nest, the first place poppa and I had together, then we brought you home, a special little package from the hospital. Your first room, your first memories, our memories together. Now we move onto our next chapter, we close this one and seal it with a little smooch. Its a shame we had such terrible neighbors that would always slam doors, yell at each other, be up at all random hours in the night. But i'm sure when I look back on this time the bad memories will be lost in the shadow of all the great times we had together. The summers were hot, the winters were chilly but in between all of that, we had laughs, tears of joy, sleepless nights and so much more.
Another memory to add to this chapter is your first real steps. Today you were so adventurous and wanted to explore more than usual. I was hesitant but kept a close eye on you and you started walking, waddling is more what it looked like. But you took steps, many times, in the bathroom, the living room, then finally the kitchen. I didn't have to coax you much, just step away from you and watch you move towards me. I got so excited and called Poppa to let him know. He was so proud. Wow, no matter how tired, stressed, etc. When I come home to you, it all goes away and you give me a little kick of energy. Just enough to get me thru the afternoon. I love you little scooter, -Momma.
This is our last week at the little yellow house at the top of the hill. The one where we built our first nest, the first place poppa and I had together, then we brought you home, a special little package from the hospital. Your first room, your first memories, our memories together. Now we move onto our next chapter, we close this one and seal it with a little smooch. Its a shame we had such terrible neighbors that would always slam doors, yell at each other, be up at all random hours in the night. But i'm sure when I look back on this time the bad memories will be lost in the shadow of all the great times we had together. The summers were hot, the winters were chilly but in between all of that, we had laughs, tears of joy, sleepless nights and so much more.
Another memory to add to this chapter is your first real steps. Today you were so adventurous and wanted to explore more than usual. I was hesitant but kept a close eye on you and you started walking, waddling is more what it looked like. But you took steps, many times, in the bathroom, the living room, then finally the kitchen. I didn't have to coax you much, just step away from you and watch you move towards me. I got so excited and called Poppa to let him know. He was so proud. Wow, no matter how tired, stressed, etc. When I come home to you, it all goes away and you give me a little kick of energy. Just enough to get me thru the afternoon. I love you little scooter, -Momma.
Friday, May 25, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
The dining room table
Dearest Ella-
Around these parts were counting down the days until we move into our new place. It seems like we're already making memories at our new home. Grandpa Earl refinished a beautiful dining room table and it will fit perfectly in our new dining room. It has a beautiful wood grain and dark wood trim all around it. I daydream often thinking about the fun times we'll have around the dining room table. You're already my little helper around these parts and i'm sure as you get older, you'll be even more eager to help me in daily tasks, until you become a teenager that is, and it'll sound more like chores, haha.
The other day I was going through my drawers, picking out clothes to keep and what to donate. As I was taking piles out and separating, there you were alongside making your own piles and such. As soon as I was done with that, I moved into the bedroom to separate some more stuff in there. Sure enough, you followed behind me, helping me sort through things. Poppa watched from the door as you trotted alongside me, here and there. You became a little upset when I moved too fast for you, so I lingered a little. You love being my helper, when i'm in the kitchen cooking, I pick you up to show you whats on the stove, and you reply with 'mmmmmm', tasty in baby words.
I'm sure when we move into our bigger place, we'll cook lots of fun, yummy meals and sit together and enjoy, make memories and linger a little bit too. I've never been a super cook, but i'm trying. For now, I cook stir-fry, grilled chicken, soups, kale chips and you seem to really enjoy the breakfasts I make you. Usually i'll make a healthy version of whole grain pancakes with blueberries or bananas. Sometimes i'll make oatmeal or just avocado and cheerios if were having a light meal. Poppa is the great cook in the clan. When we first started dating Poppa would invite me over and cook yummy meals, eggplant Parmesan was my favorite. I remember one time he wanted to cook me dinner at my little studio apartment, but I didn't even have a stove! So guess what he did, he cooked all the food back at his place, packed it up and brought it over to my place. What a guy! How could I not fall in love with a man like that? Hes something special that Poppa of yours. Today he called me at work just to say "hi and I love you". So sweet, unexpected and thoughtful. I hope one day you too have such a stand up guy in your life. I know many girls around me having children, single, with the father leaving the pictures and it truly makes me sad. Men receive such a blessing when they become fathers, many turn their backs without a shadow of remorse or regret. Everyday I hear on the news or read an article on unfit parents, children being mistreated, just now I happened across an article of a father putting their toddler in a washing machine! Who in their right minds does something like that? Unbelievable, it breaks my heart. I would never fathom such a thought, it makes me sick to my stomach. Being a parent is a blessing, a privilege, one that not everyone should have, for the sake of the child.
But onto a lighter note, I figured out what we're getting Poppa for fathers day, its going to be great. He kind of already knows because hes such a picky one. I wanted to make sure to run it by him first. I'll be sure to take plenty of pics of that special day. Now, i'm off to give you a goodnight kiss as you sleep. Hopefully I won't wake you. I love you to the moon and back -momma
Around these parts were counting down the days until we move into our new place. It seems like we're already making memories at our new home. Grandpa Earl refinished a beautiful dining room table and it will fit perfectly in our new dining room. It has a beautiful wood grain and dark wood trim all around it. I daydream often thinking about the fun times we'll have around the dining room table. You're already my little helper around these parts and i'm sure as you get older, you'll be even more eager to help me in daily tasks, until you become a teenager that is, and it'll sound more like chores, haha.
The other day I was going through my drawers, picking out clothes to keep and what to donate. As I was taking piles out and separating, there you were alongside making your own piles and such. As soon as I was done with that, I moved into the bedroom to separate some more stuff in there. Sure enough, you followed behind me, helping me sort through things. Poppa watched from the door as you trotted alongside me, here and there. You became a little upset when I moved too fast for you, so I lingered a little. You love being my helper, when i'm in the kitchen cooking, I pick you up to show you whats on the stove, and you reply with 'mmmmmm', tasty in baby words.
I'm sure when we move into our bigger place, we'll cook lots of fun, yummy meals and sit together and enjoy, make memories and linger a little bit too. I've never been a super cook, but i'm trying. For now, I cook stir-fry, grilled chicken, soups, kale chips and you seem to really enjoy the breakfasts I make you. Usually i'll make a healthy version of whole grain pancakes with blueberries or bananas. Sometimes i'll make oatmeal or just avocado and cheerios if were having a light meal. Poppa is the great cook in the clan. When we first started dating Poppa would invite me over and cook yummy meals, eggplant Parmesan was my favorite. I remember one time he wanted to cook me dinner at my little studio apartment, but I didn't even have a stove! So guess what he did, he cooked all the food back at his place, packed it up and brought it over to my place. What a guy! How could I not fall in love with a man like that? Hes something special that Poppa of yours. Today he called me at work just to say "hi and I love you". So sweet, unexpected and thoughtful. I hope one day you too have such a stand up guy in your life. I know many girls around me having children, single, with the father leaving the pictures and it truly makes me sad. Men receive such a blessing when they become fathers, many turn their backs without a shadow of remorse or regret. Everyday I hear on the news or read an article on unfit parents, children being mistreated, just now I happened across an article of a father putting their toddler in a washing machine! Who in their right minds does something like that? Unbelievable, it breaks my heart. I would never fathom such a thought, it makes me sick to my stomach. Being a parent is a blessing, a privilege, one that not everyone should have, for the sake of the child.
But onto a lighter note, I figured out what we're getting Poppa for fathers day, its going to be great. He kind of already knows because hes such a picky one. I wanted to make sure to run it by him first. I'll be sure to take plenty of pics of that special day. Now, i'm off to give you a goodnight kiss as you sleep. Hopefully I won't wake you. I love you to the moon and back -momma
Sunday, May 20, 2012
When i'm with you
Dearest Ella-
I have to say, lately you are so much fun. You have your moments of fits and meltdowns, but you have such a personality. There are quiet moments, like today when you didn't want to fall asleep quite yet, I brought you into our bedroom and you played around, you love to bounce on our bed. You came up really close to me and started pulling at my lashes, twisting my nose and poking my eyes. Doesn't sound very romantic or sweet, but it was. I could hear you whispering your babble and talking thru the experience. I let you have your way until you started poking a little to hard.
I hope as you read this the day finds you happy and free. Lately i've been feeling a strange anxiety over a lot of little things. Things that I never paid much mind to. I feel as though i'm developing a bit of agoraphobia. Poppa says its just my hormones and I have to take control of my mind and thoughts. So easily said, but not done. The funniest thing is that I don't worry so much for myself, but I hope that its something I can overcome before it begins to affect you. I don't ever want it to inhibit your sense of curiosity, because I put that worry and fear into you. I think thats where I began to develop my anxiety, from my mother. She probably didn't know any better, but it happened. I'm sure its something I will take care of, yoga, meditation, peaceful walks. All things I need to incorporate into my life. I must make the time and energy for these things. I know its a part of parenthood that happens slowly, this whole balance thing. I do have to say though, having you & Poppa in my life has given me such a happiness. You both make me laugh to no end, especially the silly conversations I have with Poppa.
Today was Sunday and we had such a lovely day, it felt like summer in the spring. Our Sundays together are always so sweet, nothing really is ever planned out, somehow though we always have the greatest times together. I hope it always remains that way. I never grew up with much tradition or structure in my childhood. But Poppa and I are giving you all the things we didnt have, all the things we missed out on. More so me than him. Either way, I hope looking back on your childhood you can smile and say it was a wonderful time. I love you, momma.
I have to say, lately you are so much fun. You have your moments of fits and meltdowns, but you have such a personality. There are quiet moments, like today when you didn't want to fall asleep quite yet, I brought you into our bedroom and you played around, you love to bounce on our bed. You came up really close to me and started pulling at my lashes, twisting my nose and poking my eyes. Doesn't sound very romantic or sweet, but it was. I could hear you whispering your babble and talking thru the experience. I let you have your way until you started poking a little to hard.
I hope as you read this the day finds you happy and free. Lately i've been feeling a strange anxiety over a lot of little things. Things that I never paid much mind to. I feel as though i'm developing a bit of agoraphobia. Poppa says its just my hormones and I have to take control of my mind and thoughts. So easily said, but not done. The funniest thing is that I don't worry so much for myself, but I hope that its something I can overcome before it begins to affect you. I don't ever want it to inhibit your sense of curiosity, because I put that worry and fear into you. I think thats where I began to develop my anxiety, from my mother. She probably didn't know any better, but it happened. I'm sure its something I will take care of, yoga, meditation, peaceful walks. All things I need to incorporate into my life. I must make the time and energy for these things. I know its a part of parenthood that happens slowly, this whole balance thing. I do have to say though, having you & Poppa in my life has given me such a happiness. You both make me laugh to no end, especially the silly conversations I have with Poppa.
Today was Sunday and we had such a lovely day, it felt like summer in the spring. Our Sundays together are always so sweet, nothing really is ever planned out, somehow though we always have the greatest times together. I hope it always remains that way. I never grew up with much tradition or structure in my childhood. But Poppa and I are giving you all the things we didnt have, all the things we missed out on. More so me than him. Either way, I hope looking back on your childhood you can smile and say it was a wonderful time. I love you, momma.
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